The inner thoughts of Meredith

First week is over!!

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 23:20:01 GMT

So, yay.... the first week of classes is over. It's funny, cuz' the first week is the easiest, but somehow it always seems to be the most stressful..... I've come to accept my schedule. It's going to be hard and very challenging, mentally, physically and psychologically. This is my schedule:

Monday - 8-9:10 Sow 4341 ~ Social Work Practice I
Tuesday - 9:30 - 10:45 Sow 4104 ~ Human Behavior in the Social Environment
- 11:00 - 12:15 Sow 4414 ~ Measurements in Social Work Research (Stats for social workers)
- 4:00 - 7:00 Sow 4370 ~ Family/Supervised Visitation
Wednesday - 8:00 - 9:10 Sow 4341
- 1:25 - 4:10 Sow 4602 Social Work in the Health Setting
Thursday - 9:30 - 10:45 Sow 4104
- 11:00 - 12:15 Sow 4414
Friday - 8:00 - 9:10 Sow 4341

I don't like the fact that I have an 8:00am practice class monday, wednesday and friday, but I guess I'll have to do it. The family/supervised visitation class is the one that is going to be psychologically challenging. I have to actually deal with parents who have been accussed of abusing their children or their spouses, either mentally, physically, sexually or who have drug/alcohol addictions and those who are mentally handicapped. I have to write up reports based on my observations and interactions with the families and my reports will go to court and will help decide if the children are placed back into the supervision of the biological parents or if the parents lose full custody of the children. So it's going to be an interesting semester because on top of those 16 hours at school, my trainings and field work and volunteer hours I have been working between 25 and 35 hours a week at work..... wish me luck, I don't know if I am going to come out of this semester alive!

moved!!

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 14:33:38 GMT

Moved into my new place!! I now live at University Grove, apt 113. Come by and see me if ya want!! I love it here!!! I have a 3 bedroom, 3 bath apt. We have a big living room and a big kitchen and a dining room. It's furnished so it came with a dinning room table, washer and dryer, couch, love seat, coffee table, end table and entertainment center. The bedrooms came with a full size bed, desk, bedside table, and dresser. I have my own bathroon and a HUGE walk-in closet (it's big enough for someone to sleep in). So anyway.... havin' a party here sometime, just not sure when... ok, gotta go take a shower and get ready to leave. I have a wedding to go to today and then I'm going to the Jimmy Eat World concert tonight and then out with the ladies!! Holla!!

these past late nights have started to get to me....

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 03:08:31 GMT

So extremely tired is me!!! I've been going non-stop for the past two weeks!!! Been hangin' out with some new buddies lately. Going to parties, hangin' out late at different people's houses, watching movies, eating pizza, going out for coffee and dinner at differnt places. Last friday night was fun!! A little too much fun I must add. It was RJ's going away party at Allison's house. I pretty much downed an entire bottle of Hypnotic, took some shots of vodka, drank a few whiskey and cokes..... yeah I got sick the next morning as I was babysitting (at 6:45am may I add). Tuesday night I went out with some other friends. We went to someone's house to begin our pre-drinking. I had a few vodka and cranberry juice drinks. Then we went to Baja's where I finished myself off. Then I think I passed out in the back of Mallory's car. Yep got sick again the next morning. Wow, I have not been able to hold my liquor lately, that's sad!
The night that topped it off was Thursday night. My friend left on sunday to go home (Baker county, between Lake City and Jax). He was suppose to leave on thursday to leave for California with his sister, but his plans got changed and he didn't leave til today. So on thursday he called and I was at my friends house, so me and 3 of my friends decided to jump in the car and head to Baker County. So we left Tally at 9:15 and got there at 11:30. We hung out with him all night. He showed us around Baker County (such a highlight of the night). We basically just hung out all night. We didn't leave there until 3:30am, and got back to Tally around 5:30am. It was a lot of fun!!
Tomorrow I am leaving for North Carolina.... GIRLS TRIP!! We are going hiking and camping and to a concert on tuesday night.... It is going to be so much fun!!! There'll be pictures posted on myspace when I get back, so be sure to check those out. An update on the trip will also be available when I return.
Well, other than that, I've just been starting to pack up my things. I am moving in two weeks. So everyone will have to be sure to stop by after I move and check out my new pad!! There will be a party within a few weeks of moving in!!

Running on no sleep

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 15:52:14 GMT

Didn't get home from RJ's going away party til around 3:30, the I had to babysit the morning at 6:45 which meant I had to be up by 6:00am. So I got about 2 hours of sleep last night. I just got home from babysitting at 11:45 and I have to be at work at 1:00, so I have no time to sleep.... blah. But then on top of that I feel like shit (maybe's it's the alcohol???) and i've been throwing up all moring (yes, while babysitting). I've already called work and told my Ashley to zone me towards the back of the store so that if I suddenly get the urge to vomit I might possibly make it to the bathroom insteal of upchucking all over the store.... that wouldn't be too good!!
So I'm sad that RJ is leaving, we had a really nice conversation and it just made me sad to have to leave last night (err.... this morning); he doesn't realize it, but he's going to be missed by a lot of people!!!

Frustrated as hell

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 14:33:36 GMT

Oh my gosh, I can not wait to move out!!! 25 days and counting. I think there becomes a point in your life when you are just too old to be living with your parents and I believe I have reached that point!!!

....

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 03:14:42 GMT

So i'm kinda sad, but i'm happy and i'm excited and i'm feeling so many emotions I don't know which to feel the most of or what to think.... I'm really happy and excited because one of my really good friends got a job opportunity and she is moving to Italy in less than 2 months to be a nanny for a year. I'm excited and happy because she's excited and happy and because I'm gonna go over there and visit her next summer.... But i'm sad because i'm gonna miss her so much, she is a big part to my life, she is a big part of who I am; meaning she has helped shaped me into who I am today. I feel like she is my rock, she has helped me get through some really hard times in my life. She has always been there for me and she's been one person that I can count on no matter what, and i've never been ashamed to tell her anything because I know she would never judge me and there's nothing I could do that would ever make her upset with me or love me any less.
I feel like this next year is going to be so different, and by that I mean good different. Hopefully I'll be getting a promotion at work and I'm moving out, and then I'm graduating in a year; I just feel like good things are gonna happen and I'm sad that Marie is not going to be here to be apart of it all. I feel like she's been there for so many downers in my life and I was looking forward to her being there when good things start to happen, but she's not. And I know, we're still gonna talk on the phone and email and she'll be back for christmas and then in a year, but it's just not going to be the same and that makes me sad.
Growing up is scary, but I guess we've all got to do it. I'm graduating in a year and who knows where I'm going to be going or what I am going to be doing after graduation. It's sad and scary to think that I could be leaving Tallahassee and all my friends in a year (which is another reason why Marie leaving is sad, she and I may never live in the same town again because when she comes back, I may be leaving).
I know it's silly and stupid for me to say this, but with Marie leaving I feel like she is taking part of my heart with her and that when she leaves that part of me is gonna leave too, like there's going to be this missing part of me, a void, an empty space that only she can fill.
Well, I have other news, but this has gotten pretty lengthy already, so I'll update the other news later!!

Drink specials...

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 05:44:30 GMT

When out with the girls, saw Mean Girls at SLB.... It was good, same as the first time I saw it. But it fit my mood. After the movie got over everyone was tired and wanted to go home, but I wasn't.... The night was still young. So I went and picked up Mary and we went to BW3's for shots. I wanted to get a French Kiss, b/c we've had that there before and it was soooooo good. Unfortunately, they were out of french kiss. So instead the bartender made me a Vodka Sunset, she said it had vodka (hence the name), triple sec, lime juice and grenadine, but trust me there was no grenadine in there at all. But I took it and it was really good. So then we went back to Mary's house and she tried to make it herself, well I think she tripped when she was pouring the vodka b/c that's all there was to it.
So I came home and made a pineapple rum and orange juice mixed drink.... it's really good. So I'm still awake and don't want to go to sleep yet, but I have nothing to do. Well, it's off to find something to do....

Quicky, or maybe not so much......

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 03:48:08 GMT

Didn't have to go to work today!!! I was on-call and they didn't need me, that's nice, but when your trying to make plans and you don't know whether or not they will use you, it's not so nice. So I get an extra day of vacation and what did I do on my day off.... oh absolutely nothing. No, wait, I take that back, I went to WalMart to finish printing off my pictures from my digital camera, went to Publix to buy a couple of things and then went home and finished my scrapbook from Vegas. Yeah it turned out to be really cute, if anyone wants to see it just give me a holla!!!
So I need a boyfriend. I am ready to start dating a cute guy, who is nice and good to me. None of this bullshit playing around, one night fling things.... I'm ready to be serious (but not like dead serious) and I need a guy who is ready to be serious with me!!! Any takers?? Haha, just kidding, I'm not gonna find my dream man on livejournal, how realistic is that??? No, but seriously... I'm tired of these stupid guys who are "just out for a good time".... that's lame, it's like c'mon step it up a little, have some balls and give a real relationship a chance...
This is all coming about because I'm starting to realize how fast life is going. It seems like just yesterday we graduated from high school and now i'm graduating from college in a year and graduating from graduate school in two years. So in two years (as long as nothing gets in the way) I'll have graduated from FSU with my bachlors in social work and then from University of Memphis Or Tennessee (I haven't decided yet or applied) with my master's in social work and hopefully getting a job there in memphis at St. Jude's. But regardless I'm gonna be living up there just to be close enough to my dream job.... My point is, is life is going fast and I want a nice guy to share this with. I know i'm getting all cheesy and sappy and probably overdramatic, but in my mind not so much.
Anyway... the ranting's over, but that felt good, i'll have to do this more often!!! Thanks form reading, anyone who did!!!

Back to reality

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 15:47:49 GMT

Back from vegas, as some of you, or most of you probably know. I've been back since tuesday, but I was suppose to go to the beach wednesday thru saturday but because of the hurricane the resort I was going to be staying at closed down. Fortunately I had already taken that time off work, so I had 2 weeks off, but today it's back to reality.
Well, I'm moving 5 weeks from today. We found out this past week that our apartment number is 113. So anyone who wants to stop by and see me after I move, remember that number. No need to call, just stop by, unless the gates are closed and then you'll have to call so that I can let you in. Oh, 113 at University Groove, for anyone who didn't know that. University Groove is on Old Bainbridge....
These past 2 weeks have been awesome. Nice and relaxing. The trip was great. Had so much fun, but after 9 days I was ready to come home. Didn't have any money left or energy. If you wanna hear what all we did or see pics, you'll have to give me a call, b/c it's too much to write in this one post.
Since I've gotten back, I've hung out with a few friends, but mostly I've been sleeping. I babysat saturday morning at 6:45 in the morning and then was home by 11:30 and by 1:30 I had falled asleep and slept until 9:30 that night....
Well, it's all to the real world....

Sin City here I come!!!

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 05:35:39 GMT

It's off to vegas for me and Mary... we're leaving in less than 5 1/2 hours and mary is still packing. Can't wait to get there, but I'm gonna miss everyone here in Tally, especially some people that I have just met and just started to hang out with.... I'm gonna miss all the guys thursday night. Have fun without me, and Cafe Caberna next Saturday.... oh well, I'll be back on the 12th and we can go out then!! Hope everyone has an awesome week and next weekend and a great 4th of July!!! Stay safe and don't drink and drive..... WTF.... that is for my thursday night friends, i had to throw that in there!!

Attention Attention

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 03:42:27 GMT

Party

Who: Anyone who wants to come

When: Friday, July 1, 2005 Time: Unknown until wee hours of the morning

Where: Unknown, but possibly Matt's house.... call Mary (445-9407) or myself (Meredith, for those of you who don't know, 567-9136) for directions or I will post the directions when the place becomes definite

What and Why: An all nighter party. The theme for this party is "Who can stay up all night and function the next day". The reason for this party is to keep Mary and myself from sleeping friday night so that we can successfully sleep and get a good night sleep on saturday. As some of you may know we are leaving for vegas on sunday morning and we know that we will not sleep saturday night because of our excitment, so our plan is to stay up friday night, in order to sleep saturday night.

Respond to this post if you think you might want to come or if you have any comments, suggestions or anything else...

FYI: it is BYOB b/c all of our money is going for our trip....

I Know Victoria Secret's Secret - they pay their employees shit!!!

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 18:40:07 GMT

So I am really fed up with me job at Victoria Secret. I do not have an scheduled shifts next week, but I am on call five days next week. That means that not only am I probably not going to get called in, therefore, make no money there, but I can't say that I can babysit and make money b/c who knows if I will get called in. That freakin' sucks, basically I am losing money anyway you look at it. My mom says I should take the babysitting jobs and just call in sick those days that I am on call, that way if they wanted me, they can't have me and I can make money babysitting. That is probably what I am going to do.

I applied for a job at premeir, in the childcare area and I really hope I get it. It's a steady income and that is exactly what I need since I am about to move out and are going to need money to pay rent with each month, in addition to everything else.

So I am babysitting right now. I have only been here for like 40 minutes and I am already bored. Thank goodness for the internet. The little girl (she's 7, Molly) is eating my lunch right now. So at least she is occupied.

Well that's about all I have to say, hope everything is well with everyone else!!

I am drained....

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 19:00:25 GMT

It has been a long day (and it's only 2:50pm) and it's been a long week!! This week I've had classes, an assignment due friday, work and then on thursday I woke up and I felt as though my throat was closed up and I knew that was a bad sign...
About 5 weeks ago I had a really sore throat and it felt as though it was closing up so I went to the doctor and it turned out I had step and tonsilitis. So I knew it was probably my tonsils (sp?) again. So I went to the doctor and sure enough my tonsils were extremely swollen again. So having to take meds for that and if they clear up I'm going to have to get them removed.
This morning I had to babysit at 6:45am, so I did that and then came home only to find out my dad had been rushed to the ER again. So I went to the hospital and sat up there. Found out my dad has conjestive heart failure again and is being admitted. I was supposed to go to work tonight, but I am completely drained and I don't think I can move even if I wanted too... So that was my week and there's still one day left for something else to go wrong.

Sheesha Nights???

Fri, 27 May 2005 22:54:18 GMT

Come one, come all.... Sheesah nights tonight!!! Anyone want to come, be there around 9:30ish or whenever you feel like it!!!

Surprise Surprise

Wed, 25 May 2005 17:26:59 GMT

I slept through my class again this morning... big surprise huh??? It's not a huge deal b/c role is not taken and my professor doesn't care if we come to class or not, all we have to do is turn in our movie papers and take the tests.

So I was on-call today, but Gannie didn't need me to come in, so no school and no work!!! NICE!!! I really have nothing I have to do today... nice!! I think I'm gonna go to the Governor Square mall and pick up my rings that I sent off last friday to be sized and cleaned. Then I need to go by my store and pick something up that I left there last night. Other than that... notta... so if anyone wants to hang out, get some lunch or whatever, just give me a call.

overslept post

Tue, 24 May 2005 16:20:21 GMT

Slept through my class, but that's ok because we had a test yesterday and with missing 3 days of classes before the test and not studying too hard I still managed to get a B. So it's all good.

I'm still at Mary's house, cuz' that is where I ended up passing out last night. We went to the liquor store at like 11:30 last night, only to find that ABC closed at 11. What the hell is that about??? So we had to go to Late Night Liquor and pay a little bit more for what we wanted. Mary got some Peach Schnapps so that she could make Sex on the Beach and I got Alize de France (YUM!!! Very good) and some Blue Curaco. First I made this drink with Blue Curaco, Rum and Sweet and Sour mix.... yeah wasn't too good. Then I made my own concoxation and had Alize with mango rum and a little bit of orange juice.... That was really good!!! It was funny because it turned out to be green because of the combination of Alize (it's blue for those who don't know) and orange juice.

So, yep still at Mary's house, and she's not here. She had to leave at 8 this morning because she had a stupid CPR class she had to go to and she won't be done til 2:30. Sucks for her!!!

Well I guess I better wrap it up. I need to go home and do some stuff and take a shower and blah blah blah and then, yippie, I have work tonight at 5. At least I'm closing with Mallory tonight and not the bee-otch!!!!

Tue, 24 May 2005 00:10:06 GMT

Fun weekend,for those of you who missed it... you missed one hell of a weekend!!! Friday night was ok only because I made some good money. I babysat until about 2 in the morning... went home, slept for a little while and then got up and went to work. After I got off work I went home, chilled for a little while and got ready to go out... Went to Los Compadres with some folks for Mary's birthday. There I drank two margaritas (2 for 1), and these really funny guys got us singing the song - Tequila. Then we went back to Mary's house where we all had some to drink (some more than others), we played Craneium (sp?) and Ring of Fire (or death, whichever you call it). Good times.... left at about 4:30 to head home, everyone was pretty much passed out at that point anyway....
Sunday I got called into work and had the worst day ever b/c one of my favorite managers said something really shitty to me and really made me feel like shit and that my life had no significance. After work I studied for a very little bit for my test that was today.
So the test was not that bad. After class today Mary came over to get her b-day present and then she and I went out for a little while. Came home, ate dinner at a friends house and then here I am. Tonight I am going to Mary's house to have ice cream and cake with her and her family and we are going to do some finishing touches on our Vegas trip!!! Exciting stuff!!!

Correction

Mon, 23 May 2005 02:56:13 GMT

Quick update just to make a correction on my last post.... it was pointed out to me that I said I had to study some time during the weekend for my test that I have on friday.... correction my test is tomorrow (monday) not friday!! I would be thrilled if it were on friday and not tomorrow, but no such luck. Someone asked me if I had become a responsible student and decided to begin studying in advance instead of cramming the night before... again - NO such luck!!!

Fri, 20 May 2005 21:32:51 GMT

I work way too much and don't get paid nearly enough!!! Then on top of that I spend way too much money!! The other day I got pissy because I couldn't find any clothes to wear, so I had to go to the mall to get something, so I decided since I was there I would do a little shopping!!! I got some stuff at American Eagler, Express and Holisters. Today I took my rings to the jewelers to be sent off and resized.... I get those back on Wednesday... It's weird not having my rings on, I feel naked!!! Then I got a couple tank tops from Gap and some panties from Victoria's.

Tonight I have to babysit, tomorrow I work and then out and about!!! Then I think I work on sunday too. Some time this weekend I have to study for my test that i have on friday!!

Fri, 20 May 2005 20:58:57 GMT

Interview Thing

1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. You will update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

1) How come you don't hang out with me anymore?

I never know when your in town.... we never seem to have free time at the same time as one another.... but that doesn't mean i don't want to....

2) When are you moving out?

I'm moving out August 22nd... party at my place on the first weekend of September for whoever wants to come... Theme = lingerie/pajama party

3) What happened to coming to NYC to visit me?

Don't recall saying I was coming to NYC to visit you.... if I had the money I would love to.

4) How many things really went wrong at Flagler?

Rich went wrong at Flagler, but other than that nothing really went wrong, i just didn't like the school, academically, I didn't fit in.

5) What are you doing this summer?

This summer I am taking one class, working as a panty pusher, going to Vegas, Daytona, and Destin and possibly to Orlando.

Vaca update

Mon, 09 May 2005 18:46:37 GMT

Had fun last week in Daytona.... with a few exceptions, but there's no need to rekindle those memories/events those that went know what I am referring too.

We did get to do that much in St. Auggie b/c of the rain, but I did get to see my friend Laci from Flagler, so that was tons to fun. The last time we saw each other was over a year ago and we got to go to the Columbia which was awesome. I love that place, it's really good. For anyone who has not been there I would highly advise you go!!!

We did some shopping in Daytona and a lot of eating and drinking and very little sleeping. Tons of fun....
I'm glad Randy got to come down, that was fun having him there. We went to a bar/club one night and the bouncer didn't believe my id was infact, my id.... but eventually he let me go in. We laid by the pool and got a little sun (some more than others). Mary and I stayed up all night one night and then went walking on the beach to watch the sunrise.... that was really cool and very pretty!!! We got tatoos (ok, there Henna tatoos, but i like mine and am thinking about getting it for real.....).

It's back to school and the dreadfulness of reading and studying. Luckily I am only taking one class, the bad part is, it is one of my worst subjects.... American Government!!! BLAH! So if anyone would like to help me with this class that would be much appreciated!!

So, i am also trying to find another job to job to go with my job at Victoria's Secret. I am not getting enough hours there considering I am only taking one class, but one of our assistant managers is leaving in july and i am probaly going out for that position, but that's not until the end of july. So in the mean time I need another form of income inorder to save for Vegas. So if anyone knows of anything let me know.

Vacation

Wed, 04 May 2005 04:30:15 GMT

So tomorrow I am leaving to go to Daytona!!! Yah for the beach and for vacations and for a week off work!!! I didn't get any days off during spring break, so this is my spring break people!!! I deserve some time off here and there!! So i'm gonna relax, lay on the beach, flirt with some guys...... and just hang out with my friends and probably do a little drinking.....

Mary and I are going to St. Auggie first and we're going to go shopping!!! Outlet malls, St. George street, the works.... Exciting!!!

Today I went and got my oil changed and the I went and got it cleaned. My sunroof leaked a few weeks ago and my seats and floor got soaked and the past few weeks the inside of my car has smelled of mold. So I got the inside shampooed. It took 2 1/2 hours and $50, but it was worth it!!! Then I went to Victoria Secret to pick up a few things (you know!!!). Since then I've been at home doing laundry and packing!!!

Well, talk to you suckas later!!!

Mon, 02 May 2005 08:00:53 GMT

i love you

Mon, 02 May 2005 08:00:32 GMT

hey ya!!! what's up

i'm really drunk and i don't know where i am

cody just left and cassie

mary and randy are here

we're drinking and playing games and i just hurt my leg

oww....

She's alive, if anyone was interested....

Mon, 02 May 2005 01:14:11 GMT

So.... long time, no post. I took a break from livejournal b/c it was starting to get annoying!! So then I was going to start posting again, but with a new livejournal, but then I decided screw that.... this is my livejournal and i'm gonna keep it!!!

I'm really excited that the semester is over, it was a long one and very rough. I have a week before the summer session starts that I will be starting. Yeah, I'm doing a six week session and taking one class: American Government (blah, but it's required for my major). So for those of you who don't know and care to know I am now doing social work and that is my official major. After I got sick last semester and had to drop out of the semester it gave me some time to think about things and I realized that I couldn't do nursing after all; it was stressing me out way too much. So then after long consideration and talking to a lot of people in different departments I am going with social work.

So this week is gonna be fun!!! I'm going to Daytona Beach with my friend. We are going to have a great time!!! We are also going to St. Augustine to go to the outlet malls to go shopping!!! We are going to have like a week of drinking, laying on the beach, shopping, clubbing and checking out hot guys.

Then later in the summer, I am going to Las Vegas!!! There's four of us going and we are leaving July 3rd. Vegas is gonna kick ass!!! It's gonna be longer than a week of just drinking, gambling, checking out hot guys and basically being stupid!!! Let's hope and pray I don't get married:) Lately, I've been doing some stupid things when I've been getting drunk.... calling my manager at 3am, locking myself inside a friends car and refusing to come out because I thought someone was going to hurt me, and i'm sure there is more, but we won't get into the rest of that now.

So that's all folks, catch ya later!!